True Story.

When I'm sad, I stop being sad and make pancakes instead. True story.

Lua

Oh hey.

A note on food today. I absolutely love food. I love smelling it, I love looking at it, I love creating it. And, like most foodies, I love eating.  Eating is one of those things that simply gives me a rush - especially when I'm eating well. But, I realize, I also seem to have developed a dependence on cheap quality food. The chocolates, the pizza, the pop. I wasn't quite as accutely aware of my dependence on such things until I decided to quit eating those things for a year.

A note to all of you planning to do such a thing: don't eat all of your favorite junk foods the day before going on such an expedition. The sugar crash is so awful for the next few days that it isn't even worth it. I had developed a splitting headache for the first day, I was out of focus, my muscles were sore.

Oh yes. It was that bad. 

I realized that a lack of bad food lead to me becoming hungrier. Now normally I did not eat until about 5:30, and that's when I had dinner. A few cups of tea in between sufficed. Later I would indulge in beautiful masterpieces (I can't even call them food) - but now.... breakfast, lunch, and dinner. All small meals, granted, but still. It's a change.

I'm slowly snapping out of my dependence - and this is what I have come to realize. First of all, Eggs Benedict with jalapeño peppers tastes amazing. Honestly. Go and make some right now.  You will be so happy - words cannot even begin to describe my euphoria at such a heavenly combination. Second of all, I have been finding that I am less tired when I eat wholesome foods. And last of all - everything has regained favor with me! Even the dreaded oatmeal, which is quite spectacular in my circumstance.

And so, I leave you today with a mission. Go make some wholesome food. Preferably Eggs Benedict with jalapeño peppers. You won't regret it.

From The Beginning.

Oh hey.

Today was a very bizarre day, stranger than most. Why was it bizarre? - you may ask.
Well, that's a very good question. Nothing completely out of the blue happened today - I didn't encounter God, or suddenly wake up to find myself in a life I didn't recognize. No, if anything, it's been quite the opposite. Today I woke up, to find that I finally liked who I was.

You at this point must be completely baffled. Why would you start a story at - the end?
Truth be told, I don't completely know. But I do know that I have had a lot of clearing up to do in the past, and that today, now that I finally feel like I'm proud of who I am, I can share my story.

Because that's what you base your life on. Stories. Tiny little insignificant stories. But what happens when they all leave?

That's what I'm here to discover. What happens when you let go.

This year, I have decided to do three things about my life:
1. I am going to cut out all unhealthy foods from my life
2. I am going to learn to let go of my past and embrace the present moment
3. I am going to write about it

Now don't get me wrong, this won't be some down and dark depressing story about a girl who gets pregnant and then must work three jobs to support her family. No, I'm more interesting than that. Let's just say, that if you stay loyal to what I'm doing here, you will begin to develop new ideas about yourself. New faiths, maybe even turn your life around a little. I don't know. But that's what I'm planning to do - maybe I can help you do the same. And if you don't want to change - so be it. I'm not here to be a preacher, we have enough of those.

I'm more of - the mirror. Another looking glass if you will. And don't get me wrong, I understand that I'm not very important in the big scheme of things, no one is. But even I, the average 16-year-old girl from Canada, would like to help. Somehow.

This is my story.